i'm really good at distancing myself from people, and i've been doing it ever since you said your comment on not wanting to lose your options. i'm not an 'option'. or at least, i'm not any more.

(TO BROC CONTINUED:)

and i know that sounds really bitter, but it's not. i don't hold anything against you. cause like i said, everyone thinks all of this is all their own fault. and like i said, there are some things in life you just can not choose. if that were the case we'd all just be perfectly fine, and we can't have that now can we?

so today i get to do my laundry and chill with kenzie FINALLY. she's been gone all weekend so i'm going through kenzie withdrawl. boo. boo on that muchly. ha. i miss the snuggling, kenzie, come back! word.

ABOUT ME AND SUZIE, CONSIDERING THE CIRCUMSTANCES WITH BROC:

i'll probably be doing some chilling with suzie too. it's so funny, considering the circumstances, were this high school and were i ever one of those lame stereo-typical high school gals, she'd be my arch-enemy. but no, no we have quite the aliance going on instead. good for us. yeay. yeay for us and our consoling each other no matter what. for our listening skills and our willingness to give hugs. yeay.

now i'm off to the meeting of my 'i'm one of those chicks who no matter the circumstances gets screwed because boys are just dumb that way' club. so far the only members are me and mackenzie and suzie, but i'm sure once we get word out, the whole dorm will be joining. haha.

too bad it's not a real club. too bad it's just a silly little semi-bitter joke. that we've been holding since meeting each other. that we've been holding since before knowing each other, since before time. since the beginning of man.

ha ha ha.

past. : present. : future.